scratchin'

i've got some bad eczema. i used to have it on my left ankle but that has gone now and moved onto my right shin. it feels incredible when i scratch, like nothing in this world. but i know the more i scratch, the worse it becomes. its a terrible affliction. i feel i can relate to heroin junkies now. it must be how they feel. when it was on my ankle i went to the doctor about it. he was confused so he took a skin sample to get it analysed. it was an unknown eczema, basically it had come about by my scratching, and the only way to rid it was to stop scratching. devastating news. no cream or tablets, just self control, in all its beauty. so i mastered the ankle. last year when travelling Mexico i was stress free, and with stress being a main contributor to my scratching behaviour, the rash diminished. upon noticing this i was encouraged and managed to avoid scratching it ever again. however since returning to my work, the stress levels have forced me to find a new outlet and i have simply transferred my area of abuse. im too embarrassed to wear shorts being how it is. now summer is coming up i have to do something about it. i mentioned in my previous post that we finally bought property. since then i have had one scratch session. i could possibly attack the area twenty times a day. this is a huge breakthrough. i just need to see it settle down now, the redness to lighten and im a chance to drop this mess for good. i relapsed once in this 9 day period. in the bath washing my feet i just let go. man it felt incredible. usually i would have just kept at it, but i pulled back and refrained any further damage. crisis averted. i might put up a picture next post.

so i've been listening to a bit on the Ipod of late. trying to get some runs in again, 30 minute sharp runs to the beach and back. its a great start to the day. i've realised that Waavves is in fact a good album. Pitchfork are right again. most of their 9+ ratings are spot on. but they are way to harsh on some very good albums. The X-X are on high rotation. Heard their cover of Womack and Womack's "teardrops"? its great

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WrVgCCUQ3fQ.

they are playing at 2010 laneway festival. the laneway festival used to be in melbournes laneways. but because they couldn't organise it in the vicinity (i.e punters couldnt get to the toilet, couldnt see the bands they wanted) the organisers changed venues to a park in footscray. no laneways to be seen. the name really needs changing. should be fun this time though. a good lineup. will post a review afterwards.

so Christmas is upon us and i have 2 days left of work.

sweet.

i cant wait to spend unlimited time with my girls.